yasinovel Chapter 183 - 183: Spiral
Chapter 183 - 183: Spiral
Spiral"Yup, looks like energy depletion to me."
Osho felt the warm current stop moving through his body as Veronica took a step back and looked at him with a small frown.
She stared at him for a few seconds before speaking again.hat is? The implications? You almost died due to a stupid mistake and are only alive because you were lucky. I took you for a smart person, but it seems like I severely overestimated your intelligence." Mateo said with a hard tone.
Osho said nothing in response and simply took their harsh criticisms. In truth, their words reflected some of what he was he was thinking as well.
Osho may not look like it. But if he did something wrong, and it was entirely his mistake, he tended to rip into himself more than anyone else.
And it wasn't just a simple mistake either, he'd literally put his life on the line for NO reason, and as someone who had already died once, the prospect of losing his second chance due to a completely avoidable situation was more than enough to send him into a spiral of self-blame.
In fact, it was especially due to the fact that he had died once that he was hit so hard. He knew how quickly it could all be taken away, and he knew how one needed to be as careful as possible as the number of things that could take a life was hard to properly count. Yet he somehow didn't account for his own stupidity.
He felt like shit.
"... I'm sorry..." He mumbled. His voice was barely a whisper, but no one had any issue hearing it, and while he wasn't crying, he sounded shattered.
"... Ah, crap." Veronica finally halted her rant when she took in his expression.
His face was devoid of emotion, but his eyes were wide and unfocused, and it didn't take a genius to realize that he was thinking about many things rapidly, few of them good.
"Ya'll are right. I was stupid... incredibly stupid..." He mumbled.
What would happen to the others if he died? At least, in his past life, he wasn't particularly close to anyone, so his death probably had a limited impact.
But what about the people here? Gale and Bedrock pretty much saw him as their dad, and Ellie held him in as high regard as her dad, if not more so.
Kurt, Sam, and Irene all had a very high impression of him, and as they had said many times, the only reason they are where they are today is due to his efforts.
What about Mrs Jane? She'd been good to him since day one, even before he proved himself to be a capable beast tamer.
Heck, emotional bonds aside, if you look at it from an objective point of view, his death would be one of the biggest wastes in history.
Blossom Citadel was currently on track to become far greater than its current level. If Osho died then that momentum would suddenly halt.
The number of powerful beasts he could create to aid humanity would drop to zero as he would no longer be able to evolve anything.
Stellaris would probably pull back quite a few of the benefits his friends enjoyed unless Ellie revealed that her second beast had legendary potential and all the others revealed they had Grandmaster potential.
His abilities and his future potential would get thrown to the dirt because he made one stupid mistake, and while he understood that impulsivity was just a part of his nature, he still couldn't understand how he had been so stupi-
"Osho!" Osho jolted out of his thoughts and stared at Ellie with wide eyes.
The girl was squatted in front of him with his hand held in hers.
"H-Huh...?" He asked shakily, and he realized that everyone was staring at him with varying degrees of worry, which is also when he realized he was sweating.
And shaking.
"It's okay." Ellie said firmly, refusing to break eye-contact.
"Alright? It's okay." She said again, and Osho swallowed, but slowly, he nodded.